he is one of the most enigmatic foot ballers in the world、dividing opinion like few others和especially among arsenal fans。

他是世界上最神秘的球員之一，特別是阿森納球迷中很少有人評論他這樣的兩極分化。

On and off the pitch, his highs and lows generate endless debate, praise and criticism. In recent months, he has been a peripheral figure for his club, attacked by thugs near his home and increasingly divorced from Germany, the team he helped to win the World Cup in 2014.

球場內(nèi)外，他的高光與低迷引發(fā)了無休止的爭議，贊揚和批評。最近幾個月，他成了俱樂部里的邊緣人物，在家附近被黑幫襲擊，并且脫離了曾在14年世界杯奪冠的德國。

Until today, he has also kept his counsel, declining to speak publicly about any of those issues. But in an exclusive interview with The Athletic, Mesut Ozil breaks his silence.

直到今天以前，他對這些事情都閉口不談，拒絕向公眾談?wù)撨@些問題。但在這次獨家專訪中，厄齊爾打破了沉默。

During a wide-ranging conversation, the 31-year-old discusses:

在這次寬泛的談話中，這位31歲的球員提到了：

His intention to stay at Arsenal until “at least” the summer of 2021

他想要待在阿森納“至少”到2021年夏天

Why he believes condemnation of his performances is “ridiculous”

為什么他認(rèn)為對于他表現(xiàn)的譴責(zé)是“可笑的”

The moped attack that left his wife feeling “scared” in their own home

黑幫的襲擊讓他的妻子在家里感覺非?！昂ε隆?/p>

How “racist abuse” forced him to quit the Germany national team

“種族歧視”是如何迫使他離開德國國家隊的

A feeling of “respect” that led to his association with Turkey’s president

一種“尊敬”感使得他和土耳其總統(tǒng)有聯(lián)系

Ozil joined Arsenal from Real Madrid in 2013 and signed a new three-and-a-half-year contract worth ￡350,000 per week in January 2018.

厄齊爾13年從皇馬加盟阿森納，并在18年簽了一份三年半周薪35萬鎊的新合同。

But the end of that season saw the departure of Arsene Wenger, the manager who signed Ozil, and since then his role has diminished.

但在簽下厄齊爾的溫格卸任的那個賽季結(jié)束后，厄齊爾的角色也式微了。

Ozil has featured in just two of Arsenal’s 11 games so far this season and last season became a peripheral figure away from home in particular, playing just 600 minutes in the league. Fifteen players were used more.

厄齊爾在阿森納本賽季的11場比賽中只踢了兩場，而在上賽季特別是客場比賽中也成了邊緣人物，只在聯(lián)賽里踢了600分鐘，有15名球員踢得比他更多。

Only Christian Eriksen, David Silva and Kevin De Bruyne have made more assists in the league since Ozil joined Arsenal — his talent is doubtless. However, the playmaker has not been as effective in recent seasons ?and he is being heavily linked with a January move away from the club amid indications that he does not figure in head coach Unai Emery’s plans. Despite this, he was still named as one of Emery’s five captains.

自厄齊爾加盟阿森納后，只有埃里克森，大衛(wèi)席爾瓦和德布勞內(nèi)在聯(lián)賽里的助攻比他多，他的天賦是毋庸置疑的。然而，他最近的效率大不如前（15-16賽季的巔峰期他在90分鐘內(nèi)的機(jī)會創(chuàng)造數(shù)是4.31，而本賽季只有1.27）且傳言稱他有可能在一月份被外租，表明了他不在主教練埃梅里的計劃當(dāng)中。盡管如此，他仍是埃梅里指定的5位隊長之一。

But when asked if he is heading for the exit, Ozil replies firmly: “No. I have a contract until the summer of 2021 and I will be staying until then.

但當(dāng)他被問及是否準(zhǔn)備離開時，厄齊爾堅定的回答：“不，我的合同一直到21年夏天，我會留下直到那個時候?！?/p>

“When I signed the new deal, I thought about it very carefully and said it was one of the most important decisions of my footballing career. I didn’t want to stay for just one or two more years, I wanted to commit my future to Arsenal and the club wanted me to do the same.

“當(dāng)我簽下新合同，我深思熟慮過并說過這是我球員生涯中最重要的決定之一。我不希望只是在這多待一兩年，我想要把我的未來奉獻(xiàn)給阿森納而俱樂部也是這樣希望的?！?/p>

“You can go through difficult times, like this, but that is no reason to run away and I’m not going to. I’m here until at least 2021.

“你會挺過這些艱難時光的，就像現(xiàn)在這樣。但沒有理由去逃避，我也不打算去逃避。我會留在這至少到21年?！?/p>

“I said that Arsene Wenger was a big factor in me joining Arsenal — and he was — but ultimately I signed for the club. Even when Arsene announced he was leaving, I wanted to stay because I love playing for Arsenal and that’s why I’ve been here for six years.

“我說過溫格是我加盟阿森納的一大因素。但說到底和我簽約的是俱樂部。即使溫格宣布了他的離任，我仍想留下。因為我熱愛為阿森納效力，這也是我在這已經(jīng)六年的原因?！?/p>

“When I moved from Real Madrid, it was a really tough time for Arsenal. But I always believed in what we could do and together we delivered. More recently things have been difficult and a lot has changed. But I’m proud to be an Arsenal player, a fan and I’m happy here. Whenever people see me in the street I always say, ‘This is my home’. I’m going nowhere.”

“當(dāng)我從皇馬轉(zhuǎn)會過來，那時正是阿森納的困難時期。但我總是相信我們能做到，我們能一起做到的。最近事情變得有些困難，很多事都變了。但我仍自豪我是一名阿森納球員，一個球迷，我在這也很開心。無論何時人們在街上看到我我總是說，這里是我的家，我哪里也不去?！?/p>

厄齊爾已經(jīng)在過去的三個比賽日里沒有進(jìn)大名單了，而在其中一場——10月3日歐聯(lián)杯打敗標(biāo)準(zhǔn)列日的賽后埃梅里表明其他人比這位世界杯冠軍得主更值得進(jìn)大名單。

A week later, the club’s head of football Raul Sanllehi suggested Ozil needed to apply more effort in training and “contribute 24-7” to earn a recall.

一周后，俱樂部的足球總監(jiān)桑列伊建議厄齊爾需要更努力的訓(xùn)練并且終日全力以赴來爭取進(jìn)入名單。

“All I know is what has already been said,” Ozil concedes. “It’s disappointing, of course. But as a professional footballer, I have to respect the decision of the coach. Not being involved, watching from home, makes me feel helpless.

“我知道那些已經(jīng)被說出口的話，”厄齊爾說，“當(dāng)然這非常令人失望。但作為職業(yè)球員，我必須尊重教練的決定。不在球隊當(dāng)中，在家里看比賽，這都讓我感覺非常無助”

“I want to be part of the side, I want to support my team-mates to succeed. I’m not training all the time just for the sake of it, I’m ready to play. This should not be about me or the coach, only the club. I have to give everything, be fit and focused, and I’m training hard to be ready.

“我想要成為名單中的一員。我想要幫助我的隊友取勝。我每時每刻的訓(xùn)練不只是為了這一點，我準(zhǔn)備好了。這不關(guān)乎我或者教練，而是因為俱樂部。我必須要付出一切，準(zhǔn)備好并且專注，我努力訓(xùn)練去讓自己準(zhǔn)備好。”

“Pre-season went very well and although things were disrupted by the [moped] attack, since then I’ve been fully available and when the coach has selected me I’ve been ready, played and always tried to give my best.

“季前賽進(jìn)展很順利，盡管后來被黑幫襲擊，但從那以后我總是一直能上場，當(dāng)教練選擇我的時候我已經(jīng)準(zhǔn)備好，去踢球，去一直盡力做到最好?！?/p>

“I’ve trained at the same level my whole career but because I’ve not had minutes recently, I’m doing extra work with the fitness coach and in the gym to get even fitter than normal. I know what is needed and believe in myself.”

“我的整個職業(yè)生涯的訓(xùn)練強(qiáng)度都是一樣的，但最近我更忙了，我在和我的體能教練在室內(nèi)器材室做額外的訓(xùn)練來讓我變得比以前更強(qiáng)壯。我知道這是我所需要的，我也相信自己。”

Ozil’s mention of Emery is in reference to a reported breakdown in the pair’s relationship, but the player expresses no negative sentiment: “I’ve worked under some of the biggest coaches in the world — Arsene, Jose Mourinho, Joachim Low — and always I show respect. It’s the same for Unai.

厄齊爾提到埃梅里在報道中說道雙方的關(guān)系破裂，但球員表示他沒有任何負(fù)面情緒“我曾在很多世界級教練麾下效力，溫格，穆里尼奧，約阿希姆洛，而我總是表現(xiàn)出尊敬，對埃梅里也一樣。"

“We might not see eye-to-eye on everything but that’s normal, it’s life and it’s the same with my family and friends. You have to accept it and go forward.”

“我們可能不是在所有事上都能達(dá)成一致，但這很正常，這就是生活，這對于我的家庭和朋友也是一樣。你必須接受它并繼續(xù)前進(jìn)。”

What if Emery, also contracted until 2021, never selects Ozil again?

但如果埃梅里的合同續(xù)約到21年，并且再也不選擇厄齊爾呢？

“I don’t think that will happen. I will play. I believe in myself to do what he asks of me and I want to help the club to reach our goals.”

“我不覺得這事會發(fā)生，我會上場的。我相信我自己，去做他要求我做的，我也希望能幫助俱樂部達(dá)到我們的目標(biāo)?！?/p>

Ozil has been the source of constant scrutiny, be it his performances since signing the new deal, his contribution in the so-called ‘big’ games, his body language on the field or his fitness record.

厄齊爾一直是爭議批判的源頭，無論是簽下新合同后的表現(xiàn)，他在所謂“大賽”中的貢獻(xiàn)，他在場上的肢體語言或者是他的健康記錄。

He describes the notion that he may have downed tools after putting pen to paper on such lucrative terms as “ridiculous” and “total rubbish”.

他把那些說他在簽下高薪合同后就消極怠工的言論描述為“可笑的”和“一派胡言”

“If that was true, why did I work so hard and positively during pre-season this year? And why, after the World Cup last year, did I return from holiday early for the first time in my career to start training three days before I was expected back? I did it for the new coach, the team and the club. Maybe people don’t like that I have a good contract? I don’t know or care.”

“如果這是事實，我又為何在今年的季前賽里如此努力，積極呢？為何在去年的世界杯之后，我生涯中首次提前歸隊，比我本該歸隊的時間提前三天開始訓(xùn)練呢？我做這些都是為了新的教練，為了球隊，為了俱樂部?？赡苋藗儾幌矚g我有一份好的合同？我不知道，也不在乎。”

厄齊爾在乎的是人們對他在高強(qiáng)度對抗中的掙扎和常常把缺席歸咎于糟糕的健康狀況的刻板印象。

“It always happens that an ex-player stands there on TV and criticises me,” he says. “Others just continue the theme and it gets in everyone’s heads.

“總是有俱樂部的前球員在電視上批評我”他說“其他人就隨聲附和讓這種印象深入人心?！?/p>

“If we don’t do well in a ‘big’ game, it’s always my fault. If that’s true, how do you explain our results in the ‘big’ games when I wasn’t involved? There’s no real difference. I know people expect me to offer more, dictate play and make the difference — I do, too — but it’s not that straightforward.

“如果我們在“強(qiáng)強(qiáng)對話”中表現(xiàn)不佳，一定是我背鍋。如果真的是這樣，那我沒上場的“強(qiáng)強(qiáng)對話”誰去背鍋？根本就沒有區(qū)別。我知道人們希望我奉獻(xiàn)更多，獻(xiàn)身足球并改變局勢，我也是這樣做的，但并沒有那么直觀?！?/p>

“I’m not the only player in the team and, don’t forget, some of our opponents are simply better than us. Also, what is a ‘big’ or ‘small’ game? In the Premier League, anyone can beat anyone. Look at Wolves and Norwich beating Man City, or Newcastle and West Ham beating Man United.

“我不是球隊中唯一的球員，并且別忘了，我們有些對手就是比我們要強(qiáng)。并且，“強(qiáng)強(qiáng)對話”和“虐菜”到底是什么？在英超里，任何人都可能被任何人打敗?？纯蠢顷牶椭Z維奇打敗了曼城，或者紐卡斯?fàn)柡臀鳚h姆打敗了曼聯(lián)?！?/p>

“So you can’t say my good performances only came in ‘small’ games because these games don’t really exist. The intensity is there in every match and often the ‘small’ teams raise their standard against the ‘big’ teams.

“所以你不能說我的優(yōu)秀表現(xiàn)僅僅是在“虐菜”里，因為這樣的比賽根本不存在。激烈的對抗存在于每一場比賽當(dāng)中，并且常?！靶∏蜿牎痹趯﹃嚒按笄蜿牎钡臅r候會超常發(fā)揮。”

“I also get really frustrated when I miss a game through illness and people question if it is genuine. Yes, it happened a few times — usually in the winter — but what am I supposed to do? If you knew me, you would know it takes a lot for me to miss a game and I have never used sickness as an excuse. Actually the opposite. I played many games when I was ill or had injuries. Before the Champions League game against Bayern Munich [in March 2017], I was sick and Arsene told me I was not in the squad because of that. The next morning, the guys from Arsenal called me and said, ‘Listen, you have to come to the stadium, you have to be in the squad’. Despite my illness, I joined the squad and played the last 20 minutes.

“當(dāng)我因為生病而不能上場時我都很沮喪，而人們還在質(zhì)疑這是不是真的。是的，這的確發(fā)生過幾次，常常是在冬天的時候，但我該怎么辦呢？如果你了解我，你就會知道錯過一場比賽對我來說失去了太多，我也從未用生病作為借口。事實上是反過來，我?guī)麕Р√吡撕芏啾荣悺Ｔ?7年3月歐冠踢拜仁之前，我生病了所以溫格告訴我我不在大名單中。第二早阿森納的人的電話給我說：聽著，你得來一趟球場，你得在大名單里。盡管我生病了，我還是在大名單里并且踢了最后二十分鐘。”

“Most players don’t play when injured or sick — it influences your game, you can’t give everything — but I was always available unless it was impossible.”

“大部分球員在受傷或生病的時候不會上場，那會影響你的比賽，你不能發(fā)揮出全力，但我總是能上場的，除非不可能的情況?！?/p>

Ozil is similarly robust in defending the demeanour — head bowed, shoulders slumped, arms flailing — he regularly exudes if something is not to his liking.

厄齊爾同樣強(qiáng)烈維護(hù)他的舉止——低頭，垂肩，擺手，如果事情不如意他常常做出這些動作。

“It’s my personality,” he counters. “People want to change me but, since the day I started playing football, I was always like this. If a game is not going well or I play a bad ball, of course I get frustrated because I know it can be better. It’s the same when I come off the pitch looking angry. I’m a perfectionist and sometimes I want too much perfection.

“這是我的個性”他反擊道“人們想要改變我，但自從我開始踢球，我就一直是這樣。如果一場比賽不順利或者我踢得不好，當(dāng)然我很沮喪因為我知道我能做的更好。當(dāng)我下場時看起來很生氣也是一樣。我是個完美主義者而有時候我太過追求完美了?！?/p>

“It doesn’t take me long to get over — I’m not going around the pitch or sat on the bench pissed off for the next five minutes or anything. It’s just in that moment and then we continue. I realise afterwards it’s not good to show this, but it’s instinctive, so I don’t plan it and it’s not easy to change.

“我并沒有花太長時間去放下這些事，過五分鐘我就不會在球場周圍或者在板凳上生氣。只是那個時候生氣，然后就過去了。我后來意識到表現(xiàn)出這些不太好，但這是下意識做出來的，所以我不是故意這樣做，想要改變也不容易?！?/p>

“This is me. I’m the same person at Arsenal as I was at Schalke, Werder Bremen, Real Madrid and the German national team. People may want me to change but I’ve been successful everywhere and I never will.”

“這就是我?，F(xiàn)在的我和我在沙爾克，不萊梅，皇馬，德國國家隊的時候一樣。人們想要我改變，但我在何處都能成功所以我不會改變?！?/p>

Such an uncompromising, non-conformist mindset has become increasingly evident, not only in Ozil’s football career but his life outside the game, too. His decision to pose for photos with Turkish President Recep Tayyip Erdogan in the build-up to the 2018 World Cup in Russia caused huge controversy.

如此一個毫不妥協(xié)，桀驁不馴的想法逐漸表露出來，不僅是在厄齊爾的生涯當(dāng)中，而且在他比賽之外的生活中也是一樣。他決定上傳和土耳其總統(tǒng)埃爾多安的合照，在18年俄羅斯世界杯中引發(fā)了巨大的爭議。

Ozil was born in Germany — the country his grandparents emigrated to from Turkey — and earned 92 caps, won the World Cup and was voted their player of the year five times between 2011 and 2017.

厄齊爾出生在德國，他的祖父母從土耳其移民到那里。他在德國國家隊出場92次，奪得世界杯并且在11-17年間5次獲得年度最佳球員。

Amid the fallout from that meeting with Erdogan and Germany’s shock opening-round elimination from last year’s tournament, Ozil announced his international retirement via an extraordinarily explosive statement in which he said he was ‘a(chǎn) German when we win, but an immigrant when we lose’. Talking about that period for the first time, Ozil appears to have no regrets.

在和埃爾多安的會面之中產(chǎn)生的影響以及德國國家隊去年驚人的在小組賽就出局，厄齊爾通過一個爆炸性的聲明宣布了退出國家隊。在其中他提到了當(dāng)他們勝利的時候他是德國人，輸球的時候他就是個外來移民。第一次談及那段時期，厄齊爾表示毫不后悔。

“[Erdogan] is the current president of Turkey and I would show respect to that person, whoever it was,” argues the third-generation Turkish-German. “Although I was born and raised in Germany, Turkey is part of my heritage.

“埃爾多安是土耳其現(xiàn)在的總統(tǒng)，我會對土耳其的總統(tǒng)給予尊敬，不論那人是誰

”這個第三代土耳其裔德國人爭辯道“盡管我生養(yǎng)在德國，但土耳其是我血統(tǒng)中的一部分?！?/p>

“If the German president or [Chancellor] Angela Merkel are in London and ask to see me, to speak to me, of course I would do that as well. It’s just about showing respect to the highest position of a country.”

“如果德國總統(tǒng)（總理）默克爾在倫敦并表示想要見我，和我聊聊，當(dāng)然我也會照做。這只是對一個身處國家高位的人展現(xiàn)出的尊重?！?/p>

Describing himself as “really happy” to have moved on from the national team, Ozil adds: “With time to reflect, I know it was the right decision. It was a very difficult period for me as I played nine years for Germany and was one of their most successful players. I won the World Cup and more, played a lot of games — a lot of them really good — and gave everything.

他描述自己從國家隊離開是一件“非常高興”的事情。厄齊爾補(bǔ)充道“隨著時間經(jīng)過，我知道這是個正確的決定。那段時間對我來說非常艱難，因為我在德國效力了九年，我也是他們最成功的球員之一。我贏得了世界杯和更多的東西，踢了很多比賽，其中的很多都是非常棒的比賽，我奉獻(xiàn)了一切?！?/p>

“I don’t say people must love me but just show respect about what I’ve done for Germany. The team was always competitive but they wanted to play a more attractive style, all age groups using the ball better. A bit like Spain. My generation changed German football. It became more fun to watch.

“我不是說人們必須愛我，只是要對我為德國所做的貢獻(xiàn)展現(xiàn)出尊重。球隊總是很有競爭力，但他們想要用更有吸引力的踢法，所有人都要更好的持球。有點像西班牙。我這一代人改變了德國足球，讓它變得更好看了。”

“But after the photo, I felt disrespected and unprotected. I was receiving racist abuse — even from politicians and public figures — yet nobody from the national team came out at that time and said, ‘Hey, stop. This is our player, you can’t insult him like that’. Everyone just kept quiet and let it happen.

“但在那張照片以后，我感覺到不被尊重且失去保護(hù)。我遭到種族歧視，甚至是從政客和公眾人物那里，但國家隊那時候沒有一個人站出來說“嘿，停一下，這是我們的球員，你不能像那樣侮辱他。”每個人都只是保持沉默讓事情發(fā)生?！?/p>

“It felt like I was expected to apologise for the meeting, admit I’d made a mistake and then everything would be fine; otherwise I was not welcome in the team and should leave. I would never do that. Racism has always been there, but people used this situation as an excuse to let it out. They are free to have a personal view, to dislike a photo I’ve taken. Just as I’m free to make a personal decision to have the photo taken. But what followed exposed their racism for everyone to see.

“就好像他們希望我為這次會面道歉，承認(rèn)我犯了錯誤然后一切就能相安無事，不然我在球隊中就不被歡迎，并應(yīng)該走人。我絕不會那樣做。種族主義一直在那，但人們把這當(dāng)做借口來宣泄它。他們有發(fā)表個人觀點的自由，不喜歡我的照片。同樣我也有做出個人決定，拍下這個照片的自由。但后來發(fā)生的事情把他們的種族主義暴露了出來?！?/p>

“There are major problems in Germany — just look at what happened in Halle last week, another anti-semitic attack. Unfortunately, racism is no longer only a right-wing issue in the country. It has shifted into the middle of society.”

“德國有幾個主要問題?？纯瓷现茉诠装l(fā)生的事情吧，又是一起反猶太人的襲擊。很不幸的，在這個國家里種族主義不再只是右翼的問題了。它變成了社會的中心?！?/p>

Specifically citing the World Cup, Ozil elaborates: “When we were knocked out and I came off the pitch, German people were telling me, ‘Go back to your country’, ‘Fuck yourself’, ‘Turkish pig’ and stuff like that.

特別引用到世界杯上說的，厄齊爾說“當(dāng)我們被打敗時我走下球場，德國人對我吼，滾回你自己的國家去，去NM的，土耳其豬，之類的話?！?/p>

“Before the tournament there was a friendly in Leverkusen and when the ball came to Ilkay Gundogan [who was also photographed with Erdogan], most of the stadium was booing him. I heard them shouting, ‘Goat fucker’, ‘Fucking Turkish boy’ and other insults that I can’t repeat.

“在世界杯之前有一場在勒沃庫森的友誼賽，當(dāng)球給到京多安（同樣和埃爾多安合照）時，大部分球場里的人都在噓他。我聽到他們在吼叫“干羊佬”，“NM的土耳其男孩”以及其他我不能重復(fù)的侮辱。”

“Before the World Cup I was supposed to be the face of some commercial deals, but suddenly they cancelled everything and removed me from their campaigns. Some of my German charities dropped me as an ambassador and advised me to distance myself from the photo. But what upset me most was the reaction of the school I went to in Gelsenkirchen. I’ve always supported them and we decided to do a year-long programme together. At the end, I was going to attend a ceremony and meet all of the staff and children, many from immigrant backgrounds.

“在世界杯之前我本應(yīng)是一些商業(yè)合作的牌面，但突然他們?nèi)∠艘磺胁盐覐乃麄兊男谐讨幸瞥恕Ｓ行┪业牡聡壬茩C(jī)構(gòu)取消了我的大使頭銜并建議我遠(yuǎn)離那張照片。但最讓我惱火的還是我在蓋爾森基興上的學(xué)校。我總是幫助他們，我們也決定一起做一個為期一年的計劃。最后，我要去參加一個儀式，去和所有的工作人員孩子們見面，他們很多人都有移民背景?！?

“Everything was planned. But then the school director told my team I should not come because of the media attention and the rise of the right-wing AfD party in their city. I couldn’t believe it. My home town, my school. I gave them my hand but they didn’t give theirs back. I’ve never felt so unwelcome.

“一切都計劃好了。但然后學(xué)校校長告訴我的團(tuán)隊我不能去因為媒體的關(guān)注，以及他們城市右翼黨派的興起。我簡直不能相信。我的家鄉(xiāng)，我的學(xué)校。我?guī)椭怂麄?，他們卻不支持我。我從沒感受過如此的不受歡迎?！?/p>

“After Russia, I went away to give myself space to make a clear decision. I talked to those I’m closest to. But in keeping with all of my decisions, I had to follow my heart and decided, ‘It’s time to go, time to move on’.

“在俄羅斯之后，我離開了，讓我自己有點空間來做出明確的決定。我和我親近的人談話。但我所做出的所有決定，都跟隨自己的內(nèi)心然后決定，是時候離開了，是時候前進(jìn)了?！?/p>

“I didn’t need to do any of this and things could have been easier for me if I hadn’t, but I’m strong enough to stand by my beliefs and decisions. I’m not an opportunist. No career chance or fame will change that. I still have strong links to Germany, I still have a marketing company there which means I employ people and pay millions of Euros in tax. I could have moved my interests elsewhere, but I wanted to give back and I continue to.

“我本來不需要做任何這些事情，而且如果我不做的話事情會輕松很多。但我足夠堅強(qiáng)去堅持我自己的信念和決定。我不是個投機(jī)分子。沒有任何職業(yè)機(jī)會或者名聲能改變這一點。我仍然和德國有緊密關(guān)聯(lián)，我仍然在那有營銷公司，這意味著我雇傭人們并上交數(shù)百萬歐元的稅款。我本可以把這些財產(chǎn)轉(zhuǎn)移到任何地方，但我還想要回饋社會，所以我繼續(xù)下去?！?/p>

“I’m proud to still work with one charity, who provide operations for children worldwide, and they stood by me. But the national team chapter is over.”

“我很自豪能仍然和一家慈善機(jī)構(gòu)合作，它給全世界的孩子提供手術(shù)，而他們支持我。但國家隊的故事已經(jīng)完結(jié)了?！?/p>

A year on from that photograph, Ozil was back in the spotlight for different reasons when — with the 2019-20 season fast approaching — he, his wife Amine and Arsenal team-mate Sead Kolasinac fell victim to an attempted carjacking in London.

照片事件一年后，厄齊爾又因為各種原因來到了聚光燈下，隨著19/20賽季的快速逼近，他，他的妻子和阿森納的隊友科拉希納茨在倫敦遭遇了歹徒的襲擊。

“I drove from my house to Sead’s,” Ozil recalls. “He was outside and we spoke. My wife was sitting next to me. Then these guys came. We were looking at each other for 10-15 seconds. We were thinking maybe they want to take a picture or something — that’s happened before. Then we noticed that they had a weapon and something was going wrong. They obviously saw the big car and because Sead had just handed me something, they must have noticed he was wearing an expensive watch.

“我開車從我家去胖虎家”厄齊爾回憶道，“他在門外，我們在聊天。我妻子坐在我旁邊。然后這幫家伙就來了。我們互相對視了有10-15秒。我們在想他們大概想要個合照之類的，這種事之前也有過。然后我們注意到他們有武器，事情不太對勁。他們顯然看到了這臺車，而且因為胖虎剛給了我什么東西，他們一定注意到了他戴著一個很貴的表?！?/p>

“他們直接告訴他，把你的表給我！胖虎表現(xiàn)的非常，非常英勇因為他攻擊了其中一個歹徒。第二個歹徒坐在他的摩托上擋在我車前，所以我不能開走”

“We were newly wed and I was scared about my wife. I was scared about Sead. I wasn’t thinking about myself. I was worried they were going to open my wife’s door and they tried, so I reached across her to keep it closed.

“我們新婚不久，我很擔(dān)心我的妻子。我擔(dān)心胖虎。我沒在考慮我自己。我擔(dān)心他們會打開我妻子的門，他們也試了這樣做。所以我越過她把門拉住?！?/p>

“I saw one chance to drive. If they got to my wife, something terrible might have happened to her. It was going so quickly that you can’t think properly. I drove a little bit forwards and backwards to try and get the moped away. I told Sead, “Jump in! Jump in!” and thankfully he did. The second guy tried again to get in. Sead closed the door and I made a U-turn. There was a construction site there and they took bricks and stones to throw at us.

“我看到了一個開走的好機(jī)會。如果他們抓住了我的妻子，糟糕的事情就會發(fā)生在她身上。事情發(fā)生的如此迅速，你沒有時間去認(rèn)真考慮。我試著往前再往后開了一點，想要把摩托擠開。我告訴胖虎，跳進(jìn)來！跳進(jìn)來！謝天謝地他做到了。第二個家伙又想著要進(jìn)來。胖虎關(guān)上了門，我直接掉頭。那里有個施工點，他們拿石頭和磚塊來砸我們。”

“I started driving but they followed. I was driving very fast but they kept coming close on the moped. I tried to move the car, block them, escape, but each time they would be there. My wife was extremely scared.

“我開始開車但他們?nèi)愿覀?。我開的很快，但他們騎著摩托慢慢追上來了。我試著開車去擋住他們?nèi)缓筇优?，但每次他們都能跟上來。我的妻子非常害怕?！?/p>

“Nothing happened to us, that’s the most important thing. We were worried these guys had been targeting us, but the police said they found them and a few hours earlier, they tried to rob other people nearby in a similar way.”

“我們安然無恙，這是最重要的。我們擔(dān)心這些人一直把我們當(dāng)目標(biāo)，但警察說他們在幾個小時前找到了他們，他們在試著用同樣的方式搶劫附近的其他人?！?/p>

Although all three escaped without physical harm, damage was done. “My wife wanted to get away immediately,” Ozil admits. “She didn’t feel safe. Even if I let our dogs into the garden and went out with them she would say, ‘Come in, come in, stay in the house!’ She was very concerned.

盡管這三個人身體無恙的逃脫了，但仍然造成了傷害?！拔业钠拮玉R上想要離開”厄齊爾坦言：“她感覺不安全。就連我把我們的狗放到花園里，然后去和它們玩，她都會說，進(jìn)來進(jìn)來，進(jìn)房子里！她真的非常擔(dān)憂”

“Something like this has never happened to us before. She told me — and Sead’s wife told him — let’s go back to our families, to be safe and let everything calm down. It was a bad couple of weeks but never made me want to leave London permanently. Now, even for my wife, everything is OK.

“這樣的事我們從來沒有經(jīng)歷過。她跟我說，胖虎的妻子也跟他說，回家去吧，這樣安全，讓一切安定下來。那幾周過的很糟糕，但從未讓我想過要永遠(yuǎn)的離開倫敦?，F(xiàn)在，即使是我的妻子，一切也好了起來。”

“I returned to training and my football was fine, but my mind was always at home with my wife. She was alone in our house and you never know what happens. So I was thinking, ‘OK, just train and go back to your wife.’”

“我回歸了訓(xùn)練，我踢球也沒有問題。但我的腦子總是和家里的妻子在一起。她一個人在家，你永遠(yuǎn)不知道會發(fā)生什么。所以我在想，好吧，訓(xùn)練完就回家去找她?！?/p>

這讓我們回到了最初的話題。在阿森納周一晚上前往謝菲爾德之前，厄齊爾希望他能將這些問題置之腦后，并重新找回他的魔力。

“I had some tough times when I was younger and that helps me in periods like this because I’m mentally so strong and can deal with it,”?

“我年輕的時候也經(jīng)歷過艱辛，那對現(xiàn)在的我有所幫助。因為我精神上足夠堅強(qiáng)來面對這一切?！彼偨Y(jié)道。

“I have the support of my family and friends, and also whenever I don’t play or things are not great, look at how the Arsenal fans react. They make me feel amazing. When I go out in the street, when I’m at the stadium, when I look on social media or in my post at home, the supporters tell me, ‘We’re all behind you’, ‘You’re one of us’, ‘Keep strong’, ‘You’ll get your chance’.

“我有家人和朋友的支持，并且無論何時我不踢球或者事情不如意，看看阿森納球迷是如何反應(yīng)的。他們讓我感覺棒極了。當(dāng)我走到街上，當(dāng)我在球場里，當(dāng)我看社交媒體或者在家里看我發(fā)的推特，支持者都告訴我，我們都是你的后盾，你是我們的一員，保持堅強(qiáng)，你會得到機(jī)會的?！?/p>

“I’m very thankful. It keeps me happy, focused and patient to wait for my chance. I remember in 2014 when I hurt my knee — the first bad injury of my career — the fans never stopped supporting me. Even the songs they wrote, I’ve not had that anywhere else and that backing is important to me.

“我真的非常感激，這讓我開心，專注，并耐心的等待我的機(jī)會。我記得在14年我膝蓋受傷的時候，我職業(yè)生涯中第一次重傷，粉絲們從未停止過支持我。還有他們?yōu)槲覍懙母?，我在別的地方從未有過，這些支持對我來說非常重要。”

“I have faith in myself and I know my quality, as do the club and my team-mates. This is the reason why, for nearly 14 years, I’ve been in football and at a high level. If and when I get the opportunity, I will show it again.”

“我對自己有信心，我也知道我的能力如何，俱樂部和我的隊友都清楚。這就是為什么，在將近14年的時間里，我都一直踢高水平的足球。如果能給我機(jī)會，我就會再次展現(xiàn)出我的能力?！?/p>

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翻譯：AmaneSuzuha